observations on a rainy afternoon.

I am surrounded by books and windows in MMA library at 4:12 in the afternoon on Tuesday. The only one in the library, my hand is still cramping from writing a myriad number of definitions. I take frequent glances to my left through the window as the rain streams down the glass panels and onto the pink blossom tree below. The girl with the colossal ribbons tied in her hair just packed up her seam-stretched lavender backpack and left the library. Just me and Mrs. Librarian Lady now. Listening to music in a foreign language makes me feel like I ought to be doing what I am doing now [writing/nothing] in another country, on a rainy afternoon such as this. I look down at my cold hands. Chipped nail polish. Smiley face drawn by my beloved lab partner. Smeared ink marks. Plumeria ring on the left; the calligraphy CTR ring on the right. I refuse to go into depth, if you can't tell. Just observing my current state of being, and frankly, I'm quite pleased. Mama calling...there's my cue.

No Importa...by Noel ? Ft. John Legend.

Iris.

and I dont want the world to see me

cause I dont think that they understand

when everythings made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

oh how i love this song.

Pualani: Flower from Heaven.

I must admit, I've been in this

loss-of-words state of mind. And

this state has carried over to

what I say.

Nothing.

I don't know what to think.

Utah and Idaho seem to occupy

a lot of that space in my mind

recently.

Due to my lack of thinking,

I've decided to let the following

pictures bring my thoughts

back to life.

Mama and I attended the

Philadelphia Flower Show.

When we were there,

I didn't speak.

But I thought...

beauty.

BUTTERFLIES.

current status:

hands won't stop shaking as I type.

So there I was.

Washing my hands in school.

When my phone vibrates in my pocket.

Dry hands.

Message received from: Marcus.

"Its here lana. Its here. And im going crazy !"

and thats when the shaking started.

one hour.

just one hour.

We'll know.

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